The day I said thank you...

Another double-sided secret for you to digest. I suppose what these latest few secrets should tell you about me is that I've been doing a great deal of reflecting lately. I don't know if it is the total change in all aspects of my life that is prompting me to look back but honestly all I want now is to look to the future (and for the first time in a really long while it is looking bright). I guess what I am trying to say is that I am happy. I am happy with who I am, with where things are going in my life, with the support of my family/ friends and really, truly happy with the support I get from all my fellow bloggers. I'm not sure if it is because you don't know me and therefore your opinions are really impartial, or whether the anonymity of the internet would allow you to say what you really think - but the fact that you are all lovely in spite of this means that your comments are all the more heart-warming. So thank you and as always, enjoy!

The day I worried...

This is my latest secret, I hope you like it. This should probably be part of a pair with the leaf secret from a couple of days ago. There are some people you simply can't have in your life - because they are a destructive force or because they make you a destructive force in your own life. It doesn't mean that you don't care about the person, that you wouldn't do anything for them if they needed it...you just can't have screwing you over again and again. This secret is my way of saying I care, just perhaps not enough to make it work. Can you relate to this? Enjoy!

The day I remembered you...

I would like to share something with you. It seems crazy that revealing this to you feels somehow more difficult than revealing my secrets each day but for me poetry is a window to the soul. I know people have the same thing with music, movies or books, but for me poetry can move me to tears with only a couple of well placed words. Here is one of my favourite poems and the inspiration for this secret, 'Remember' by Christina Rosetti:

Remember me when I am gone away,

Gone far away into the silent land;

When you can no more hold me by the hand,

Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.

Remember me when no more day by day,

You tell me of our future that you plann'd:

Only remember me; you understand

It will be late to counsel then or pray.

Yet if you should forget me for a while

And afterwards remember, do not grieve:

For if the darkness and corruption leave

A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,

Better by far you should forget and smile

Than that you should remember and be sad.

The day I worked...

So I have been working at the cinema I told you about. So far the job is going quite well, it is tiring but quite interesting and I get to see snippets of all the new films which is quite cool. I created this secret by using some beautiful leaves and a brown pen - I hope you like it. Any suggestion of my blog re-design do let me know, enjoy!

The day I reflected...

Here is my latest secret, I hope you like this one. I created this secret by using some beautiful coloured sequins and letters. This is a secret I have been keeping hold of for a while - and it wasn't one I was sure I wanted to reveal. It feels good saying it out loud, and it feels good putting it down on paper. It seems strange that one year could comprise of all of your favourite moments and of those moments which are better forgotten. On a more positive note I am thinking of doing a blog overhaul in the next few weeks - any ideas or suggestions? your input is welcome. Enjoy!

The day I recovered...

Here is my favourite postsecret from the selection this week, go and check them out for yourself. Sorry I haven't got back to you since before my birthday - I have had a hectic few days. I instantly recognised this secret as something I do. I actually spend a great deal of time thinking what I would take if my house was on fire. What would you rescue if your house was burning down? I'd love to hear from you, I think it is fascinating. I'll get back to you with my own secret a little later, enjoy!

The day before my birthday...

So tomorrow is my birthday, I am turning 21. I haven't got any plans until the evening and I don't have university tomorrow so I think I might go shopping and have a relaxing day to myself. I'll definitely be making a secret so look out for that. Enjoy!

The day I used the internet...

My internet is down at home so I've had to come in University to use a computer. Unfortunately that means the secret I had planned to upload a few days ago will have to wait. Here is my favourite postsecret though:

I love reading true crime books and one of my favourite areas to read about is school shootings. As someone who wants to be a primary school teacher I find it particularly interesting as it tells us a great deal about the power of bullies. It is something that doesn't really happen in this country (mostly due to strict gun regulations) but I'm sure everyone has either been a bully of suffered at the hands of bullies at some point in their school career. This postsecret spoke to me for that very reason, can you relate to it in the same way? I got the job I mentioned last time I posted - I start at some point later this week so that is pretty exciting. The job is at a cinema which means I'll get to see early screenings of films that are coming out - the new Harry Potter film to be exact. I've actually never seen a Harry Potter film just to further infuriate any fans out there, but I'll let you know what I think. Enjoy!

The day I interviewed...

So I have a job interview today. I have been applying for jobs all over the place, pretty much anywhere that has anything available as I desperately need some money to keep me going. This is my second time at uni so in order not to get into more debt I have decided not to receive any student loans (read: I am broke). So send me good thoughts today and then hopefully I might ace my interview. This secret was created by using various different bits of card. I love finding new colour combinations that work well and this sort of reminds me of liquorice allsorts or something - either way I like it. What do you think? Have a nice day, enjoy!

The day I thought of Rolf Harris...

Can you tell what it is yet? I've been playing with the idea of image deconstruction. I love that you can take a recognisable, fully formed image and completely deconstruct it by taking it apart and reorganising the pieces. Anyway, this secret is about being unable or unwilling to ask for help when you need it most. I am more stubborn than most people so I know that admitting you need help can be tough but I have been in situations where it really is the only option. Can you relate to this secret? Enjoy!

The day I tried...

Here is my latest secret, I hope you like this one. I don't tend to use neutral colours because they don't really show up when scanned in but luckily this has worked, what do you think? I have a busy day ahead tomorrow so I probably won't post again until later in the week when I've had a chance to make some secrets. Enjoy!

The day I finally got some sleep...

I've not really had much of a chance to get any proper sleep recently. I decided to be lazy today and sleep in a little bit to catch up on all the missed hours. What better way is there to wake up than to realise that new postsecrets will be up? This is my favourite from the selection this week, go and check them out for yourself at postsecret. There are few things I would actually judge my friends for but how they treat my family has to be pretty high up. I always find it interesting that there is that unspoken dynamic between friends that you can bitch about your family as much as you want but that they have to sympathise without saying a bad word about them. What are you doing with your Sunday? hopefully relaxing like I am. Enjoy!

The day I thought about you...

Here is my latest secret, I hope you like this one. As you know I have had a crazy 6 months: I left Oxford, applied to new courses and started University again all while working about 4 different jobs. I thought the first time I would have a chance to slow down I could relax and take some time to think about things. I finsihed my job on Tuesday and since then I have been driving myself completely insane. Keeping busy seems to be the only thing that could keep me from thinking about everything all the time, and now I don't have as much to do I am inside my head all the time - truthfully, it is driving me crazy. My solution at the moment is to drown out my thoughts with bad TV and making secrets, we'll see how it goes. I hope you are all good, enjoy!

The day I made a choice...

Here is my latest secret - I hope you like it. I went shopping today for some new stationary (is there anything more exciting?) and found some beautiful sequins which I used to make this. I have finally had a chance to catch up with making secrets which is great - I don't feel like such an awful blogger now. I have a great secret to show you tomorrow so you can look forward to that. Speak to you tomorrow, enjoy! x

The day I counted...

So I think this secret is going onto my list of favourites - not just because of what is represents to me but also because of the journey it has taken to create it. What do you think of it? and does it mean anything to you? I am glad to finally be able to decorate both the front and the back of some secrets - I was sticking them in books before and obviously that meant no two sided secrets. I've yet to decide what to do with this secret: deposit it somewhere, send to postsecret, send to a reader, give to someone important? let me know what you think. Enjoy!

The day I started again...

Today has been wonderful. This morning I finally had some time to catch up on sleep. I got up and wrote some letters, made some phone calls and then set about doing some work for university. This evening I watched x factor and then made some new secrets for this week. I created this secret by using a picture from a fashion magazine I picked up at work. See if you can spot the song reference, enjoy!

The day I worked through it...

I agree with this postsecret in part. I love that I have an outlet for my secrets and I love that so many of you are interested (this still surprises me). I sometimes wish I had a private outlet for my secrets or even some secrets that I could keep to myself. I feel compelled to share my secrets with you and I love doing it but there are certain secrets I wish I could take back. I guess I am always going to feel like that, I just need to learn to moderate and I'm starting to understand that. How do you feel about secrets? go and check out postsecret for yourself, enjoy!