The day I knew you wouldn't...

This is my favourite postsecret from the selection this week, go and check them out at www.postsecret.com. I connected with this secret as soon as I saw it. It is actually something I do via my blog on a regular basis. The messages I leave are quite ax explicit as these ones, and often they are embedded in the secret, but often they are comments about friends/family. It would be nice to be able to say these things to people but then you never know what people are thinking about you, right? I hope you all had a lovely weekend, I will catch up with you this week hopefully. Enjoy!

The day I was fine...

I really hope we get snow soon - snow in November seems like some kind of strange luxury. It does mean, however, that I am going to have to invest in a coat at some point. I am so tired today and I think I am coming down with a cold so whilst I would love to update you further on what I have been up to I will have to settle for another day. Let me know what you are all up to though, that might just brighten my day a little. Enjoy!

The day I forgot...

Here is my latest secret, I hope you like it. A number of things changed when I left Oxford - most of them for the better. I have completely got my life back on track and I feel happier now than I have done for a long time. I know the path I am following now is the right one but I can't help feeling as though I have let a number of people down, including my parents. I feel that now, more than ever, I have to prove myself and to constantly defend my choice to other people. It is not simply enough for me to know that I made the right decision because not everyone else understands that. I would love for my parents to be as proud of me as they were when I was accepted to Oxford, but I don't think they will be. I would love for it to be less obvious that the decisions I've made are a disappointment to them, but it isn't. I would love for it not to matter, but it does. More than anything I would love for this secret not to be true of how I feel most of the time, but it is. I suppose only time will serve as a way to heal the past, and the choices I make now play a large role in that.

The day it increased...

This is my favourite postsecret from the selection this week, go and check them out for yourself at http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com/. I judge other people based on a variety of other things - it is something we all do. I rarely take anything from these snap judgements, because it is always more important to find out what someone is like from spending time with them. It is interesting, however, that little things about your room/handbag/house/car can tell other people a small amount about the kind of person you are. Is this a secret you can realte to? enjoy!

The day I checked...

Here is my most recent secret, I hope you like it. I have been really busy lately so it is fortunate that I made some secrets in the limited downtown I had earlier this week. I need to do an updated post on what I've been up to but that will have to wait as I am heading off to university for a class, enjoy!

The day after...

This secret is one I have been preparing to reveal for a while. I am undecided as to what it says about me - whether I've never experienced true love or that I absorb myself so much in literature that real life doesn't stand a chance. More importantly, is this a secret anyone else can relate to? I'm not sure it is possible to feel the pain of love more acutely than when indulging in Wuthering Heights...I guess only time will tell. Enjoy!

(I am using a larger picture format, is it better?)

The day we missed each other...

This is my latest secret, I hope you like it. There are certain people who you just know will have a positive effect on your life. A person who has all the qualities you admire and who can bring out the best qualities in you. I can't really explain this secret further at the moment, but just know it is very important (an update to follow). I hope you've had a lovely weekend, enjoy!

The day I swapped...

I always thought when I lived away from home that the feelings of longing to be there were more to do with the comfort of my house than the people. Living at home now I can see it much more clearly. I love spending time with my family - we don't tend to spend a great deal of time together so it is really the little moments that are the most important. My home is defined by the people in it and ultimately I am too. Go and check out the other postsecrets this week at www.postsecret.com. Enjoy!

The day I thought of us...

... and what it had become. Here is my latest secret, I hope you like this one. Sorry for only posting one secret this week - I've been really busy with various things which I'll update you on at some point. Thank you for all the lovely comments lately, it is so nice to know that there are people out there reading this. Enjoy!

The day I moved on...

So this is my first secret after reaching my 400th - I can't believe I have so many. I want to start this new period off with a really positive note. I feel really great at the moment, I have such high hopes for the future and I am so happy right now. This photo totally represents how I am feeling and it is nice to have something that captures the moment so perfectly. I am going to leave this post here before I start gushing and you all begin to feel nauseous. Enjoy!

The day I dedicated my post to Marika...

I found out some really sad news this week and I have been trying to get my head round it for the last few days. If you read my posts regularly you will know that for the last 4 months or so I have been volunteering in a charity shop. On my first shift, and quite a few subsequent ones, I worked with this lovely old woman called Marika. She was eccentric and wonderful and told me such interesting stories about her life. Sadly her husband had terminal cancer and she was caring for him, despite her own health problems. A few months ago her husband, David, passed away. I hadn't seen Marika for a long time as she suspended her volunteering at the charity shop whilst he was particularly ill but I had been keeping up with how she was from a fellow volunteer who knew her well. About a week ago I decided to write to her, so I sent her a card letting her know how much we all missed her at QEF and how sorry I was for her loss. I went into the charity shop on Thursday and found out that she passed away 3 days ago. I wonder if she read my card, I wonder if she knew how important she was to people or how much of an impression she made on my life even in the short time we knew each other. I didn't know her very well and our connection in life was brief but nothing better reminds you of the fragility of human life than the passing of a friend. I want to dedicate this post to her, and the following poem:

Everything passes and vanishes;

Everything leaves its trace;

And often you see in a footstep

What you could not see in a face.

The day I felt sick...

Here is my latest secret, I hope you like this one. I created this secret by using some purple sequin stars and I wrote the message by scratching letters into them with some tweezers. You can just about read the words on it, but for those of you who can't it says 'I want to cure your troubled mind'. I would love to explain this secret to you but at the moment I am having some trouble putting into words how I feel about this, I'll get back to you when I have had some time to think about it. Is this a secret you can relate to in your own way? I'd love to know, enjoy!

(I was in such a hurry posting this secret that I forgot to mention that it is my 400th secret to date, hurrah!)

The day we shared...

In the rush of my weekend i almost forgot about postsecret. Here are my three favourites from the selection this week. Do go and check them out yourself and let me know which one spoke to you, enjoy!

The day my feet recovered...

I am completely exhausted. I spent the entire weekend working (over 23 hours in total) and now my feet are aching all over. How has your weekend been? This is my latest secret, I hope you like this one. I am going to catch up on work for uni today and then tonight I have training for my job. Let me know what you are all up to, enjoy!